update! Loki drawings

So, As I've explained in my previous post.
I've been trying to draw Loki but it didn't turn the way I wanted.
So, after trying over and over again, I suddenly found myself drawing myself in a loki-ish outfit.
Because I find female bodies a lot more easy to draw, and well as a member of Loki's army I should have a drawing of myself in a Loki uniform.

At first I wanted to give myself a similar helmet.

But then I realised Loki wouldn't want a 'mortal ' to wear such a helmet that represents the gods.

And since I know my place, it would be an unrespectful thing to do!

Same for his staff aka Spear. I'm sure he wouldn't trust a mortal with it.
So, I drew myself a pair of fighting gloves, they'll be my weapon instead of Loki's spear, and they refer to Loki's helmet as well!

problem solved! and it looks pretty awesome as well!

So,  same with the cape. The cape is a symbol of the elite and the noble. Since I'm just an ordinary fangirl ( lol ) I again thought it wouldn't be very respectful toward Loki and the other Asgardians to give myself a cape.

The rest of the outfit is pretty much the same as Loki's outfit. The top is a cropped version of his vest, and the pants and boots are a 'tighter' version. The plate around my neck, shoulder and arms are a cheap ass version of what Loki wears.

The knee caps I kinda came up with myself. To give it a bit more 'combat' feel. I am one of his soldiers after all.

Here are also the drawings I made of Loki's face, to get a hang of his facial structure.
I think I made him a bit too creepy in the bottom right....
I adored drawing his more 'sweet' faces though. the Sad one felt so natural to draw though, as if Loki's face was made to look sad... ( poor guy )

no more school for me!

Today was the last day I had to go to my goldsmithing class.
I managed to finish all my assignments on time! Even though I really had to work like a madman!
I'm also satisfied with the grades me teacher gave me!
I got 80 % on my first assignment
86% on my second
And 90 % on my last!

So I'm really glad with those! I hope my boss will be satisfied as well!

Also, Yesterday I tried to draw Loki but his ' I'm-gonna-rule-you-all ' smirk isn't that easy to draw .
So, I tried to draw his face seperatly to get a hang of it.
When I tried again it was his body that was failing miserably. ( I'm not that skilled in drawing male bodies )
So...after several attempts I just ended up drawing myself in a somewhat Loki-ish costume. ( Since 1 : female body! and 2 : my face is easy to draw! hooray for tiny round faces )
As soon as It's internet worthy I'll post it here on my blog.
Do not expect too much from it though. It's been a while since I've drawn and I can tell I'm having more difficulties than ever.
That's why I'm so wise not to upload my first failed Loki attempts :') hahaha
Funny thing is I always draw whatever person I'm drawing, naked, before I start to add clothing.
So , since I didn't finish the Loki drawing, he's kinda half naked for the moment.

hehehe...maybe I should upload it.
But then I'd need to fix it first O_O
it looks kinda awkward for the moment.

I hate this heat ! * hisses*

I'm happy it's gotten warmer, because I do enjoy walking outside without wearing a jacket.
However...there are limits !!
My skin is so sensitive it can't even handle my own sweat.
( ugh I know disgusting right ? Luckely I'm one of those persons that hardly ever sweats )
Every single time during this time of the year, the skin on my hands get irritated ( for some reason the skin on the back of my hands is incredibly sensitive... )
So, I'm not amused! For working with all those products, metals and rough material at work, my skin is going through a lot.
Today my skin actually reacted to white gold!
Having an allergy to gold is pretty rare, but I only have it during this time of the year.
( actually, the skin on my hands reacts on EVERYTHING during this time of the year )
And my skin always starts acting up when it gets too warm outside.... It's no sun allergy, it's really just that the skin on my hands can't handle sweat. gnnnn
That's not all, it's not only the skin on the back of my hand, but also the tip of my nose...
I look retarded.
And, it gets worse! if I use a product on this infected skin, I get allergic to it.
The gel I used for it, suddenly made my skin swell and burn. And this happens every single year when my skin starts acting up!
So, I got another one .... same happened
and then they gave me another one!
And yeah.... same happened.
This x 10 and you get the amount of things I've already tried. It's crazy.
But at first they all worked perfectly fine!

( and yes a Loki gif has to be used because it's starting to turn into a little habbit... I mean...I had one or more in almost all my previous posts. let's just keep it up until I have no more gifs to use )

so, the specialist told me " Why don't you just....keep everything away from it okay ?  It's werid, we have no idea what's wrong with you....you have a mutant-like skin... it's scary....get it away from me"
so yeah.... I just have to hope it will go away by itself.
( that's not really what they said but that's how I heard it )

Also, I HATE showing my legs.
Stockings are my best friend....I never wear a skirt without wearing something to cover my legs.
But because of this heat wearing stockings is a no go.
But wearing long trousers isn't really pleasant either.... So yeah.... I hate this heat.
So, I'll just torture myself and wear stockings anyway.
no way I'll be walking on the street with naked legs.

and ofcourse....no wearing black.
Lately I've only been buying black clothing.
So now I'm pretty screwed, I need to go shopping.
AGAIN

SO many reasons to hate this heat!

*crying*

now, my money was finally transfered to my paypal account.
So, I'm now trying to order my Loki figurine.
And guess what, they ask for my credit card !!

 ---> My face right now!

they only accept paypal that's linked to a visa card, mastercard or credit card.
And in my case it's just linked to my bank account!

And I don't know anyone  that has any of these either. ( Besides my mom but SHE MUST NOT KNOW
oh dear I'm about to cry.

" To pay for this purchase right now, add a credit card to your PayPal account. "
I'm so close! and now just because I don't have a credit card I won't be able to order my Loki figurine.

I WAS SO CLOSE WHYY

No, seriously, if anyone can help me out with this, you'd make my LIFE.

Edit :
now it turns out the euro's value changed versus the Dollar value.

And two days ago 200 euro was enough....
SO I made sure there was 213 on there

Now I'm three dollars short...

THREE DOLLARS

*cries* why lord WHY

I'll just try again tomorrow D8

result exam and my hatred for waiting...

So, Remember I went to see the Avengers for the second time the day before my final exam ?
Well, I got the results today.
I scored a 125 on 150, be proud my Avengers, be proud.
Owned that exam....

I know right ? I'm good, Damn....So good....



Today I overslept though :') I haven't been able to sleep the past few nights.
I even took a sleeping pill a few days ago and it didn't even work.
*sigh*
I guess it's the stress of getting everything done on time.
Ofcourse, at work I don't really have to worry about something like that. But I still have school on tuesday and I have an assignment I need to finish.
Only one more lesson next week so I'll have to get everything done in just 4 hours next week.

I brought in one of my wax birdskull models and the casted piece will already be waiting for me tomorrow after 2.
Sadly I won't be able to pick it up since I'll be at work.
So, I'll have to wait an entire week before I can go and pick it up.

But, that's not the ' wait ' I mentioned in the title of this blog.
No, Currently I'm waiting for my money to be transferred to my paypal account so I can finally order my loki Figurine!

It should happen today... so I'm checking my inbox for an email from paypal every 5 minutes.
I hate this waiting.... god I want to order him so badly.
Expensive? My mother must not know!

Wax bird skulls

So, I was asked to make a birdskull necklace in silver for a dear friend.
She had given me a very cheap ring with a little birdskull.
She told me I could use it to make some jewellery for myself as well, Hoozah!

The metal was awfull.... My saw went through it like it was butter.
And because I was curious I heated some parts.... and what happened I simply can't explain. I'm pretty sure it was just a mess of garbage melted together. It was awfull....
However, I had to clean it up completely before I could make a mold of it.
I opened the eyes, made the lines in the skull more clear and made the inside hollow.

When done, I made a mold, poored wax into it , and this is what came out!

I'll get one cast tomorrow, polish it nicely and make a pendant out of it.

I hope she'll like it. otherwise she's always free to tell me and I'll change it.

The others I'll keep to myself and experiment with a little bit more.

I can carve into it, add more elements, change their shape some more... It'll be fun! And I have such wild plans for these other pieces.

Also, I have the mold! So I can cast as much as I want!

I really can't wait to get started on these.

oh, and I'ts decided....I'm going for the Loki figure after all!

Because...well...

figurine obsession

I'm falling back into my figurine obsession. Back when the Lord of the rings movies came out I bought this enormous set of figurine.
I even have a cavetroll . It's crazy, and I love it so much.

I also have a large collection of Dragonball Z and GT figures. And last year on facts I bought a Vincent Valentine as well, and a few weeks ago a Hope Estheim.

But now.... I might just order the most awesome figurine ever.
It would be my first Hot toys figurine. I've always loved their work but I never really had the money to buy something from them.
But, now that I earn some money, I could actually order a Hottoys figurine!
And.... What I've been waiting for ever since The avengers movie came out finally happened!
They're making 'The Avengers ' Figurines!
And, ofcourse ...It's the Loki figure I really want!
Today they finally revealed the actual Loki figure! and he looks amazing!
They'll even be adding the muzzle and shackles!

So, Now I'm waiting for the pre-orders to start!
However I'm still not a 100% sure I'll actually be ordering this figure.
I've never spend that much money on a figure before, but this is a hot toys figure!
And friggin Tom Hiddleston as Loki!
gnnn I know my parents would kill me if they find out that I've spended that much money on a figure....
And that's really the only thing that's stopping me from pre-ordering.

When I pre-order it will be cheaper... so if I wait to long I might regret it.
Plus it's a limited edition!
Oh dear lord I need it so hard! It would look amazing next to my PS 3D television O_O ( yes I already have a spot reserved for him )

Just look at how realistic his face is! It's amazing!
And it looks like he poses easily as well!

GOD so much lust D8

crazy new photoshoot project SOON

So, I'm planning a new photoshoot with the lovely Catherine Skwara!
Those who don't know her...go check out her work here : http://www.skwara-photography.com/
or here : http://skwawesome.deviantart.com/

What it will be...I won't be telling yet though.
But I can say that it pleases my inner geek and Fangirl! ( doesn't everything I do with Catherine Skwara please my inner fangirl and geek ? I mean...mermaid shoot, Avatar shoot... )

Why Catherine ? Her photographs are always stunning plus she's a very talented stage makeup artist!
So, if I want to be turned into some weird unhuman creature she's the first one I go to.

Sadly finding the correct props will be the most difficult thing for this shoot.
I won't be photographed full body so I don't need an entire outfit, still, the athmosphere has got to work so I'll need accesoires.

they'll probably be self made because I doubt I'll be able to find those things in ordinary shops.

Here are some pictures of my previous coöperations with the lovely Catherine.

please do not steal any of these pictures. these pictures belong to myfragility and Catherine Skwara  alone.

The Darkness II, plus tonberry hunt in FF XIII-2

So, yesterday I finally bought ' The Darkness II" for PS3.
Plus, I managed to get my hands on a limited edition as well, lucky me, because they're all sold out.

I get extra features, including a free download of the first and second volume of the original comics.
Plus, a lovely poster....
and ofcourse, more game features.

up until now I haven't start to play the actual game yet. however, I did play the demo yesterday before I bought it.
I must say, I normally don't like shooters that much. ( to be honest, it's because I suck at those )
However, The Darkness II really surprised me! Even though I'll have to practice a lot to actually get good at it, I really love the gameplay.
Controlling the darkness while shooting, plus making sure you don't step into bright light...The demo was so much fun and exciting!
I don't have to go to work tomorrow and friday, so, I'll have plenty of PS3 time.

I have this feeling this game will keep me from leaving the house for a while.
I haven't played anything else but Final Fantasy XIII-2 this past month.
And even though I'm such a huge FF fan, I'm kinda dissapointed about XIII-2.
The reviews said it would be so much better than XIII.
But...I liked XIII a whole lot more than XIII-2.
I don't really understand why some even dislike XIII. But then again I know my taste in games tends to differ from other gamers.

So, now I'm just training like crazy in XIII-2 for the moment because I really want to tame a tonberry. However it manages to KO my party before I get to bring it's healthbar to zero.

So, if I get bored I'll now have The Darkness II to get my mind off that friggin Tonberry.

It's one of the tiniest, cutest and less dangerous looking monsters in FF. However, don't be fooled by it's cuteness. This creature is a nightmare, and I'm planning on taming it.

And to end this post, I'll post add some pictures of the gorgeous scenery and artwork in FF XIII / XIII-2
Is it possible to feel homsesick for a world that doesn't excist ?

This is not ice people, but crystal.... oh dear lord let me live there

And ofcourse, the gorgeous Cocoon

And , the characters

A third time ?

I'm actually thinking about going for a third time >>....
Oh dear lord I have no life.
I've seen it twice in 2D but now I'm thinking about seeing it in 3D...
however I do have a 3D television myself, So when the DVD comes out I'll buy the one that supports 3D.
( prolly won't leave the hous for a week or so )
...

It's Decided! GOING TO BUY IT IN 3D

All the gifs I get from Tumblr btw.... It's filled with crazy The Avengers fans like myself


oh and this

I have only been Loki's twice today.
I don't know if I should be happy or sad about it.

...

I'm sad about it :(

Please ...just ...someone, tell me I'm Loki'd
please, send a message or something..

or an email.

Or..whisper it in my ear

Just tell me I'm Loki'd

Tell me!

Metal Engraving

So, In september I'll start with a new course at evening school. Metal engraving.
This year I've done 2 modules of Waxcasting and molding.
One year is ofcourse not enough to really get good in it.
But knowing the basics will already help me on my way a lot.
plus, it will open my world a bit more, knowing what's possible and what not.
Even if I won't be able to do it myself in the end anyway, knowing it's out there and how it works will have affect on my designs and make them more varied.

Also, if I really like it I can just take extra classes and do some home schooling.

I'll have to buy a lot of material though, but it's worth it! Engraving really is something that will bring so much more to my work.
I think it would suit my ' style ' as well, and it will allow me to create this athmosphere I so desperatly want to express in my work.
Details, subtile markings, soft and elegant lines.... Those things I really want to put in my future jewellery .
Engraving is so underrated as well. It's a lost art, which is sad in a way because it's just so beautifull.

plus I think you can do so much more with it than just ' classic ' engraving work.

and also, who sais I have to limit myself to metal ?

There's wood, bone aso I can also engrave.

because if you can do it in metal, you can do it in anything really... I do know I'll cut myself a lot.

The tools are ridiculously sharp and accidents happens really fast.

who knows, the bones in my hand might get 'engraved ' as well :') by accident that is.

Could be pretty, no ?

messing butterfly finally done!

all that is left is polish it nicely...
Polishing is an art on itself, so I don't expect it to be perfect ( far from actually )
Isn't it just.....ugly ? I hate it so much to be honest. But oh well...it was an exercise, and a good one... I cursed out loud when soldering the top two wings.
Never again!

Also, today I had my exam about goldsmithing.
It went better than I thought It would go. I'm sure I'll pass.

well..maybe my exam would have been better if I hadn't gone and watch the avengers yesterday for the second time :')
" Jazz wanna join ? we're going to see the avengers! "
" but...I....I have exam tomorrow...and I've already seen it..."
" oh alright some other ti- "
" NO I'M JOINING CAUSE LOKI AND ULTIMATE NERDGAZMS "

That's kinda how the conversation went.

and then me in the cinema :
" OH SHI OH SHIIIIT it's startiiiiiiing D8 oh no NO NO HAWKEYE NOOO  . LOOK LOOK IT'S FRIGGIN IRON MAN I CAN'T EVEN GAAAAWD . Oh it's the Hulk he's here! I can't even it's really him OH MY THOR IS HERE. OH MY ALL THE HERO'S ARE HEEEEEEEEERE "

friends :

me :

Yeah I'm pretty sure they won't be joining me when they start playing The Avengers II

I'm gonna buy the DVD, watch it non stop... unf all the nerdgasms

oh and this is so sad it's actually funny :

I should be studying but....

Everyone has been sending me Loki related images and gifs lately. Seriously my facebook page is filled with Loki because everyone keeps on spamming me with it.
Not that I mind... I mean... Living la vida Loki

Stop distracting me with Loki! I need to focus !

it's really starting to get out of hand, I get mails from people with in the title : JAZZ this IS URGENT.
And when I click and the mail opens I see this :

I LOVE MY FRIENDS

But still guys stop it :') hahaha. I need to focus.
Maybe I should just move away from the computer, turn it off and all.
( They'll probably just start sending me messages on my cell... oh god )

I'm a little sad though that I won't be able to go with my friends to go see the avengers ( for the second time ) on monday since I have exam the day after.

So here,  have all the pictures my friends have been spamming me with, Funny thing is that I run into the same picturs on tumblr as well....Loki you truly are taking over the world aren't you  ?  :

these two I got in my emails just a sec ago

If there's more I'll post them, ( I'm sure there will be more....I'm very, very sure )

Oh god this entire week I've been Loki'd by almost everyone I know.

And I myself turned into a prankster as well. I feel sorry for Milinda whom I've been pulling pranks on.
Oh god.

I feel like he's trying to take over the world through me.

:')

hahaha