Darksiders II

Today I've been playing Darksiders II non-stop.
Darksiders II is a lot of fun and very addicting!

The gameplay is amazing plus one can climb walls Assasin's creed style.
Not to mention the different kind of weapons are awesome, And I love his pets, Dust and Despair.
 ( Dust, his raven and personal guide.
And Despair is his loyal horse, with creepy green flames instead of manes. )

And I, just ADORE Death's voice. The voice actor did a great job.
Which reminds me I'll have to look up just who the voice actor is.
Death is such an ass and I love the hint of irony in his voice.
I'm in the realm of ' the makers ' at the time being, I got the fire of the mountain flowing again.
But I'm amused by the difference in size between the makers and Death.
I mean, Death looks so intimidating, with that mask, creepy weapons and clothing, not to mention his pale- blue-ish skin.... But the makers are TWICE as big as he is.
Which makes him look tiny and cute. And still he acts like the man in front of them.
Oh Death you're so amusing.
Now, next is to collect ' the tears of the mountain '.
Ah....It's good to be gaming again.

oh happy day

The carrot red wig I had ordered for my BJD finally arrived.
But....
ofcourse
It's WAY to small.
Why ? BJD wig sizes are listed as 5-6 inch, 6-7 inch , 7-8 inch ... aso.
When looking on ebay I only looked for the 9-10 inch wigs, Ebay even has a seperate tag for 9-10 inch. when typing BJD wig, ebay automatically let's you choose between the inch-sizes.

But ofcourse, I just HAD to order a wig of the only person on ebay that uses CM instead of Inches for BJD wigs! And I have NO idea why she was listed in the 9-10 inch tag!
Not to mention the picture of the product was that of a MALE SD BJD. Hooray for confusion !

So yeah, this super tiny wig arrived.
my mom has a 16 cm doll, and even for that one the wig is WAY too small.
Ofcourse the first thing I thought was " now I need to buy a tiny doll...."
And like it was magic, my FATHER ( who doesn't approve of our BJD hobby ) said " now you'll need to buy a tiny BJD "
*evil laugh*
But, On my way home from the post office I passed a Free Record show and I decided to buy some new P23 games, because I haven't in a while.
I bought Dishonored and Darksiders 2.

I read the official Playstation magazine, they gives reviews about new games, keep us updated about the changes and evolutions in the playstation world aso...
And the reviews about those two games were very positive! Especially about Dishonored

Dishonored is a first person shooters, something I'm not very good at. BUT ! this one is very different from your average shootergames.
You can use magic, including summoning rats. It takes place in this diesel-punk like world, and you've got to be SNEAKY.
So ofcourse I had to buy it.

And, Darksiders 2.... You are ' death'. That alone is already pretty awesome.
And, it's actually about the apocalyps. So lots of dark-magic and fantasy stuff. Just how I like my games.
the reviews said it's a very awesome take on the apocalyps, also, the design of 'Death ' is pretty awesome!! Ain't he a cutie ?

 

 

I got a very special gift yesterday!

If I had a camera I'd be able to share it with you all....
I got a synthetic Alexandrite !! My teacher at syntra, knows of my little Alexandrite-obsession.
When he was going through his old gemstone collection, he found a synthetic alexandrite.
" Ofcourse that made me think of someone " He said as he gave me the gemstone.
I am soooo happy with it!
The colour-changing quality of Alexandrite isn't very flashy-looking with this stone though.
It looks light purple-greenish in daylight, and it glows dark purple-red in fake light.
But I'm NOT complaining. I'm definatly going to make a gorgeous necklace for this stone.
I already have some crazy ideas for it!
And it's strange, now I got one I want MORE.
So, the next stone I'll be buying will definatly be a lab-alexandrite.
I found a labratory that's specialised in growing Alexandrite, and the colour-changing magic of their alexandrites are amazing!

Sadly, I already have an enormous list of things I want to make...And buying another alexandrite will simply make my list even longer.....
Oh dear if only I had MORE TIME.


Here, have a youtube video of a real alexandrite.
Twirling around and changing colours like a boss.

A true crystal child

Crystal children have always fascinated me.
And so what started as a design for stretches, ended in a in crystal covered naked woman.
As for her unique hairstyle, I once dreamed I had breast cancer, and when bald because of chemo-therapy, I got my skull tattooed. I didn't want to wear wigs all the time to hide my condition, I had forced myself to see beauty even in those difficult times. So, my skull was ornamented with flowers, roses, pedals, crystals aso... everything beautiful.
I never forgot that dream.... Maybe because I'm utterly terrified of that horrible disease... I often catch myself thinking about it, and then I ask myself ' what if ? '
My friends all know me as a paranoid person, I often scare myself, I have the craziest mind, really.

And in this drawing, I think, I pictured a woman who's strong, a warrior, a fighter, one who won't give up. I pictured her naked, her breast showing and her nipples exposed and pierced, to pull even more attention to them.
She might lose one, maybe both... yet her expression is strong, she stands tall and her eyes and posture show pride.

This, has made her a crystal child, she grew into something that is ' beyond human '. Someone people look up to, someone that leaves an impression, one that inspires. She was forced to become this, it was either that, or give up.

So I guess, I drew a woman I wish I could become one day.
Someone who, even if going through a lot of trouble , won't ever give up, and will rise above it, whatever it is.
This is true strength to me. Making the best out of the worst. finding light in the dark.

Everyone has been in the darkness once, and will be again in the future. Life is filled with ups and downs, some people experience those downs more than others.
Feeling sad, troubled and scared while in this darkness is no sign of weakness, as long as you decide to stand up one day, place one foot in front of the other again and pull yourself out of that darkness.
The darker that darkness the more difficult it will be to not get lost in it.

So to me, someone who's been in the darkest of darkness, no matter in what way, and yet manages to step out of it, even if it seemed impossible, is truly strong.
Go find the crystal within you people. Go look for it when everything is crashing down.

You can see my hair from space

My hair has never been this bright!
Also, No makeup plus painting at work!

BJD projects

Oh Jazzy and her little doll obsession... If only I had more money and time to really turn my BJD's into the gorgeous characters I have in mind.
I ordered a carrot red wig a few days ago for my Phosphene ( IOS Blood )
And Milinda and I will order everything needed for faceups and body shading.
I really like his faceup as it is now, but, I think it just needs an extra edge.
I'll darken up his eyes, and shade everything a bit more.
Body blushing is a must! He can pose so easily and so his poses all look so natural and ' real '. But, his resin- skin tone really makes everything looks so fake. *sigh*
I might give him a nice Yoshitaka Amano inspired tattoo as well.

My very first doll I bought, was a Helena , whom I named Monochrome... I don't even remeber which company she's from.
Now, she looks really dull to me....So, I'll give her an entire new look as well.
I want to do something crystal- gemstone themed.
At first I was planning on selling her. But, she's my reminder of the trip I once made to Japan... plus she has this unhuman looking face... I really could do something neat with her.

The most difficult things are the clothing, ofcourse. I'm planning on just finding someone who's willing to make those clothing for me. yes it will be expensive, but I have a feeling they'll never get the outfit I want them to have if I'll try to make it myself.
I already know what I want phosphene to have, and for Monochrome I have absolutely no idea yet.

I have two more dolls. But they belong to my mother as well, so she doesn't want me to pimp them.
which is a shame because I had wild plans for them too ( hehehe )

My mom knitted a cardigan for Phosphene though, it's adorable.
I really want a new BJD... But I'm forcing myself to first finish these BJDs before buying a new one.
Mainly because seeing all those pictures of BJD's on the net, makes me want to take pictures of my little family as well.
But I first need to make them presentable....

BUT BEFORE ALL THAT
I need to work on my entry for the Enchanted Doll Birthday contest !
It has to be perfect!
wish me luck!

Another teaser for the milk shoot!

I really love the contrast between the two, and I can't wait for the other pictures.
These pictures were taken in Bram's bathtub, filled with lots of warm milk.
first we added flowers, then we added this little sea-friend and some ink.
I shouldn't forget to mention the great makeup artist, Dennis !
I really want to work with him again.

Last weekend I had another shoot with Bram, not just any shoot though but a duo shoot with the amazing Sara Scarlet.
I was a bit nervous for I believe she's a far better model than I am. But we had fun on the shoot itself, even though it was freezing cold!
And she's SO tall and I'm SO tiny! I tried to play with that contrast and use it for the pictures, hopefully there are some nice ones !

We were taking the pictures in a real circus tent, sadly the shoot itself only took about an hour because we had to leave at 13.00.
I hope I'll be working more with this team in the future.


the tent! :

yeah

No one gives a fuck anymore.
Why do I even bother.
I try hard for everyone,
try to be at my best for people
what do I get ?
Nothing
just nothing.
Next time someone asks me a favor.
I should just say no.
But you know I can't. I find it hard to say no.
I love working together with people,
trying to accomplish something.
But it tires me, I always have to give and give and never get to take.
There is no balance.... there never was a balance.
And even those that are closest to me don't seem to bother.

Maybe I just need some time off, some time for myself....
Or maybe I should keep on working to just focus on my projects and forget about everything else.
oh well we'll see.
In times like these you learn which people you can depend on.

Alexander

Of all the characters I've designed, Alexander must be one of my favourites.
I tried to keep his design simple, and his background and personality a lot more complex.
I wont tell his story though, simply because there's to much to tell and I'm still working on the details.
What I can tell though, is that there's a lot more to Alexander than what meets the eye.

he's wise, older than he looks, strong, anti-sociaal and he's always on the move. Like a ghost he holds many secrets and never wishes to share them, he barely even show his face.
Yet he carries many scars of his past. Behind his stern expression lies a broken man, But, He will fix what he can and he won't just give up on all he has lost. A true warrior, brave with eyes as red as Alexandrite can be. But, lost, wandering, longing for a past he once had, as blue as an Alexandrite can be.
   
He, is my personification of the most beautful and one of the rarest gemstones in the world, Alexandrite.
So ofcourse choosing a name for this character was easy.
As for his design I wanted him to look like a wandering man with no home, lost and always on the move. But strong, a warrior, one to be feared.
Because the colours red and blue needs to stick out, I decided to leave all the other colours out of his design. His hair is as pale as his skin, only his reddish eyes stick out, so an albino.
I love how the light can change the albino-eyes from red to blue, so it fits perfectly with the alexandrite theme.
His clothing are the same shade of rich-blue that Alexandrite mostly has...you can barely call them clothes though, they're just layers of fabric kept together with ropes. very wandering-ish indeed!

This is the first sketch I've made of him, but I'll make more, even try a portret once, his expression needs to be perfect, it needs to fit Alexandrite. So I'll probably work long on that one before I'm satisfied.