Me as a super villain ?

Every evening on facebook I have an awesome 'rpg ' chat with a friend, Rodney.
yesterday however, no actual rpging happened, But, he did ask me something I'm really excited about!
He lives in The Netherlands, and there he has this irl roleplay group.
This means they actually meet up, have their own characters, and work out an entire storyline in a role playing manner. ( they don't really fight, or wear costumes. They all sit around a table the entire time and it's more like a boardgame )
My friend Rodney is the ' storyteller'. it's his job to think about plots, future events, and in this case, the villain.
He asked me what my favorite super power is. Naturally that's summoning! The idea of just creating a beast out of nothing or opening a portal to another world to let creatures slip through, is something I find truly fascinating.
So, he then told me he was going to use me as the super villain for the next IRL RPG.
Isn't that awesome ? somewhere in the Netherlands an entire group of people that have never met me, will be fighting against me ( as their characters ofcourse ) for the next months.

So, he also asked me to draw myself as a super villain, to give his group a reference of who they'll be facing. Plus, to think my powers out. My super villain name, what type of summoning I use aso....
( picture looks awfull here, Go check it out here http://myfragility.deviantart.com/art/Mother-307535635 in a better quality )

He explained to me how these super powers work in this univers, and so how a summon would look like.

everyone in this word with superpowers has a red energy dwelling inside called quantum materia.

Therefor I made it look as if this energy is leaking from my eyes and hands, and the floating materia then takes a monster-like shape.

also I came up with this:

My super villain name will be ' mother '. since the creatures I summon are actually creatures I create myself from scratch. I think about their powers, appearance, personality aso.... Some monsters only take a few days to create, other months, and some even take years, to make them as 'perfect ' as possible.

Once created I can summon them anywhere, anytime, and they see me as their mother.
Which explains the name!

The awesome thing about being the main villain is that I can actually go all out, and so don't need to worry about being ' too powerfull' because that's kinda the idea here!

On a side note, I just love to draw with ink. drawing feels so natural when working with this material.

I hope he'll keep me updated about how the story progresses. I'm really curious to see how this ' me ' character will be like.
I'm also thinking about joining a irl rpg group in Antwerp. I know where to find them and I'm going to drop by one day to ask if there is room for a beginner.
I've already asked some people to actually start a group ourselves, and they seem pretty excited about it as well. I'll look into it a bit more!

Figurines and BJD's!

So, my room finally got a new paint job, and I got rid of everything I no longer used. My rooms looks so much bigger now, and soon my workbench for goldsmithing will be placed in my room as well.
It can't fit through the door so we'll need to lift it inside through the window.

The walls now have a grey-violet colour. and the ceiling, closet, door and frames are painted into a dirty-salmon pink. 
on paper the colour combination looked alright, it was a bit edgy though.... but still, I wanted to give it a try.
It worked out nicely! It's not a very commen colour combination but I think it looks alright.

But, this post is about my little figurine and BJD collection.
it's already getting dark so I had to use flash....it killes everything really but still. It's just to show you guys what BJD's and figurines I have.

 

Blood looks like such a creep, standing there half naked next to two young girls...headless!

I've been calling him Hookface the past few weeks. Poor guy, luckely his head is on it's way!

His clothes....are nowhere to be found sadly. all this cleaning up to get my room ready to get a makeover, kinda made me misplace some stuff, including his clothes.

And his wig...hehe... yeah I still need to order one *sigh * (we don't speak about shoes...they're a nightmare )

My two girls! Monochrome's eyes are weird in this picture though. I blame it on the flash .

I really should think about giving her a make over as well. She's so ' blank ' looking.

Or...I might just sell her, and use the money to buy a doll I'll feel more connected to.

I don't have with her what I have with Luria and Blood.... Maybe I really should consider selling her?

And our Luria is looking pissed as always. My mother is really fond of her and made her the outfit she's wearing. It's adorable.

My mom wanted to name her as well, since she hasn't though of a name yet. We call her Luria. Which is the name of the D.I.M doll sculpt.

It's crazy how amazing she poses. She makes every pose look so relaxed, I love it.

  Here a picture of my 'closet of awesome ' as I like to call it.
With Lord of the rings figurines, Final fantasy figurines, Steamboy statues, Dragonball Z/GT statues and a few pokémon. Because I regret nothing

As you can see a cave troll is causing amok, luckely, the fellowship of the ring is getting some help from the one and only Vincent Valentine and Hope Estheim.

My lovely steamboy statues. This movie is a must for everyone that loves Steampunk. Steamboy got me into steampunk in the first place. The statues you see are all steampunk machinery that appear in the movie. Below them you can see my dragonball statues, they are friggin adorable by the way.

And some good old pokémon figurines ofcourse. Plus my awesome pokéball.

Because one can never spend too much money on nerdy stuff and BJDs.
I also finally managed to order my Loki figurine. He'll be getting a very special place in my room!

hehehehe

because Loki has no idea how easily he could obtain this ' creature '

heheheehe...hehe...he....
...
Tony you ass

"another stolen relic "

Yes the title refers to the amazing scene in which Loki confronts Odin.
ahum... yes... Well this blog isn't really about that scene.
IT IS, however, about Loki's oh so awesome helmet.
Which balances between rediculously looking and friggin awesome.

So, Now that my goldsmith classes are over, I have an entire day off.
So, I go shopping ?
Oh hell no!
I go to the atelier and make stuff for myself! hoeza!

So, I think you can guess what I started on.
Yes, a cute little Loki helmet!
I 'studied ' on the designs of that helmet for a while, to understand just how it was made.
And I must say it's CRAZY! however, I managed to make a little design that's simple enough to make it in the size of a pendant.
Also, I discovered that the helmet Loki wears in Thor is actually very different from the helmet in The Avengers. I never really payed much attention to it until now.
Loki's helmet in Thor is more ' knight ' looking, it's less detailed than Loki's helmet in The Avengers.
Which ofcourse, perfectly makes sense. Loki in Thor is seen standing between all the other soldiers in Asgard, and they all wear the exact same outfit as Loki ( plus helmet )
In The Avengers of course, he's dressed more like a God-king. So, ofcourse the helmet is a lot more detailed.

ANYWAY. So ofcourse, To make it possible to make, I focussed on the helmet he wears in Thor.
Yet, even that one is still a bit too difficult to make in such a small size.
However, I'll do my very best to make it look as much alike as possible.
It won't be a problem to make it recognisable though. with the horns and all.... 

So, first thing I had to ask myself was : How to start on this ! How do I make this helmet without making it too difficult for myself!
The trick is too see the helmet in rough lines. The helmet itself is actually, a square. And the base is nothing more but a simple ring! So hooray! I had my starting point, and now up to the rest!
This, is what I came up with :

I managed to see it in 9 steps. So, I've started on making this piece as well.
I'm aware I will run into some trouble along the way, for this is the first time I'm making something like this, and I'm pretty sure there are easier/better ways to get this done.
Luckely my boss is right beside me when working on this.
The part I'm most worried about is the one in which I actually make seperate pieces, that are on itself, made out of more than one part .
And then, I have to putt all those pieces together, and solder it.
however those seperate peices had some soldering done as well... So... it will get diccult to solder it nicely without ruining my previous soldering.
Plus the edges have to stay sharp! So I'll have to ' blind ' solder. It's a technique in which you place the solder underneath a piece, and so when you heat it you have to ' feel ' when the solder has melted.

Anyway, Like I've said, I have my boss right beside me to help me out when things get rough.
here are some teasers from the making off :

From ring.....

To a rough helmet shape

The base of the helmet is 20 mm on 20 mm. So it's not too tiny... ( if I made it any smaller it was going to get too difficult to make it as detailed as possible )

Can't wait to get back to it....

Blood's faceup!

My BJD, blood by Immortality of soul, has been staying over with Lotta for the past month.
( uh...I kinda beheaded him though. His body is still right here with me. He looks creepy with that metal hook instead of his head. )

Yesterday I got the news from Lotta his second faceup was done!
You see, she had done one before but we both agreed that it wasn't what we wanted.
So, she started all over again, and this time it looks amazing.

I explained to her what I wanted, but since she's the faceup artist and has more experience than me in that field, I gave her some freedom on how she wanted to translate my idea to the actual faceup.
What I wanted was his eyebrows and eyelashes to be white, she could add subtile grey touches if she wanted to.
A bright, white line on the top eyelid, thin, but it had to be a little extreme, otherwise it would fade away between all the other white elements. A red line on the inside of the eyelids, Red pops up extremely when combined with white, so she could do with that what she believed what was best to not take the attention away from all the other parts of the face up.
The eyelids itself are molded pretty deep, which I believe is lovely, she could accentuate that by adding lighter and darker parts, accentuating the shape of the eyelids.
And last but not least, very soft looking lips, with that i mean no full pouty looking lips, with gloss and lots of colour. they had to be subtile, manly.
I also gave her white eyelashes to glue on the top eyelids, they were a little too long for my taste... she told me should could fix it, so that made me really happy.

in the end, the first faceup she send me was rather....not what I had expected. The eyelids were way too dark, black even, while I had skincolour in mind. The red line and the white line were looking way too agressive, and the grey eyebrows yet black eyelashed made everything look unfinished.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/39998307@N06/7189380176/in/photostream

so, we had a chat about what was wrong with the faceup, what was good, what needed changes aso...
So, she tried all over again, and I must say..... I'm REALLY pleased with the end result. It's even better than what I expected it would be! It's so him as well.... this faceup fits his personality SO well! and it brings out it's gorgeous facial structure just perfectly! I'm so madly in love with him right now...I can't wait to have him home here with me, reunite him with his body ( hehehehe ) and take a lot of pictures!
I'll finally get to call him Phosphene as well....

http://www.flickr.com/photos/39998307@N06/7342486928/in/photostream

dissapointed

"
Human behave yourself,
you have burst at the seams
let it all fall out open your mouth
often I lie wide awake,
think of things I can make
but I don’t seem to have the parts to build them
Human I wonder why you’re a better make than I could ever build or create,
you know not love or hate
I am so scared of what will kill me in the end for I am not prepared,
I hope I will get the chance to be someone,
to be human,
look what we’ve done,
 I would give my life, to be human
I would give my life, to be.
Human I’m trying to come clean,
I will be a better me,
I will not drink until I’m dead
I’ll make the most of it.
I don’t know what it’s like to be alive,
to say goodbye,
to cry a thousand tears because my ears won’t listen
Human I’m trying not to lose my faith in you,
I’ve sussed out all that I’ve seen through,
I’ve sailed an ocean
I am so scared of what I’ll look like in the end for I am not prepared,
I hope I will get the chance to be someone
to be human,
look what we’ve done,
I would give my life, to be human

I used to hear it all so loud,
the sound of my heart breaking.
The truth is waiting to be found,
I trust that I will take it
I would give my life, to be (human) "

I adore the lyrics of this song. For this is how I look at the people around me from time to time.
Sometimes it's hard for me to understand that I am just like them.
I do not feel better, or worse, just different. Because some do things I simply can't understand.
They hurt, use, play with others, They do not care about what damage they do.
Broken and shattered heart are scattered all around this world and people that care are growing rare.
All you can do is watch it happen from a safe distance, hoping people like that would never break into your life.
Sometimes, They manage to cross that distance though, sometimes you endure it yourself and even though you know what's going on you can't stop the hearteache, the dissapointment, the sadness and sorrow from taking over every single part of your mind, body and soul.
You can't stop that person from doing what it's doing.
people telling you they love you, even though they only want to get in your pants
people telling you, you're the only one, while they hide the existance of their girlfriend/boyfriend for you.

Seriously is that what being a ' human ' is all about ? Hurt before you get hurt ?
I'm getting more and more dissapointed in the people that surround me.
And, I really shouldn't be complaining though. I have many people close to me that are amazing, sweet, and wonderful.
Sadly those people are growing rare.
What is humanity growing into  ? Or has humanity always been like this ?
I'd really, really give my life to see humanity grow into what it should be.
I'd really give my life to grow into such a person as well .
I'd really give my life to be sure the man that will be the father of my children will love me for who I am.
I'd really give my life to be sure my children won't have to use others in order not to get used themselves.

I'd really give my life to see everyone become more human.